Is it a drug, like novocaine or something? What is it that makes you want it so bad?

Nice writing. Continue on this wavelength and care less about lacy things. Nobody cares about lacy things externally (mostly), but Internally. Laces and lints are an emballage. It is what is underneath that counts most. In soul. So, some words symbolize qualities of soul. Gentle writing. A kind presence in Yaps. You!