I'm so depressed and my mind is filled with suicidal thoughts and I want to die?

I found out a few days ago that I'm HIV positive,I know that sleeping around with female sex workers,especially if you live the the Bronx the risk is extremely high.I can't think of anything that can ease my frustration or my guilt because I have failed everyone especially my family,I can't live a normal life,I can't get married or have children.My depression and stress has reached its limit and I think suicide is the best option for me right now.I cannot believe how STUPID I am.I ******* slept with 28 women,all were escorts on Backpage.com, and I went ahead and did this sinful act.I don't know how my family will take it,but I can't live this kind of lifestyle,I have no friends,my family is becoming very suspicious of me and are avoiding me completely.I knew that HIV/AIDS was still at large and I didn't bother to care about the repercussion it may have,I've had enough of this,I just want to take my life and suffer for my mistakes when I die because my life is not worth it anymore,I'm a disgrace to my family,to God,to the people who put me through college.I'm an nonentity,I can't be trusted by anyone,I just need to end my life,here and now.